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[12 Jan 2009|07:50pm] hmm i have to update i got lots to say...but i dont know when xD i'll do it later when i find the time and courage to do so~ till then *toddle off* 2 comments|post comment

[06 Dec 2008|01:32pm] I went to see the doc tuesday...he got me on some pills for my stomach and to sleep better. My stomach still hurts like hell and i cant sleep better. He told me that i could go crazy if i didnt let go of all this stress of mine...it's nice to know, that, any minute from here, i could go and be friend with the loonies... I'm trying to let go of this guy...i swear i am...but he is so nice and sweet and funny! We're still talking and he acts like nuthing ever happened. His "girlfriend" went to see him this week end. I'm sure everything is just fine between them, cuz the girl is like "ohhh i love him so much!!! he's such a good person and what a personnality and oh my god he is so cute" eventhough she knows him only for what...1 week... bitch All i can say is that if she, by any chance, is playing with him, there'll be hell to pay! NO ONE mess with my friend and those i love *angry stare* 2 comments|post comment

[30 Nov 2008|08:56pm] [ mood | weird ] I'm feeling weird... How can i explain it. Hours ago i apologied to the guy coz of my behaviour of yesterday night, i asked him if he still wanted to talk to me. He said yeah sure why wouldn't I. then i told him that i wouldnt change my life, that, ok i'm in love with him and he got this 'girlfriend' but that i wouldn't change nor care to change my way of acting with him. If he wants to talk to me about anything he can, sure, i'll listen. I'll chatter the time away, like always, coz that's what i do and you dont expect me to be depressed... people really do have a fake image of me when i think of it! So here is the result I did nothing creative today coz hey i feel like shit! (note that i'm using the present), i'm not even sure the guy in question will talk to me... coz whenever i TALK he only give me stupid smileys... I hate it when people dont tell me what they really think or want or both! He will become a stranger i know it deep inside me. They always become strangers... In the meantime i'll try to get over my depression, move on with life as if nothing ever happened even though i know it's not true, that i'll always think about it. Kinda pathetic... Cheers! post comment

[30 Nov 2008|01:01pm] [ mood | crappy ] Ok I dont know what to think anymore Some person told me to give up Some other told me to fight for him maybe he'll realise lol? When you think about it, it's all a matter of choices... To say i'm bad at chosing would be optimistic... I totally suck when it comes to chose between different things!! Lets talk about something else! Drinking...is bad... I have this mother fucking headache and i feel all dizzy and i'm freaking cold coz hey i drunk in my bedroom and now it STINKS so i have to keep the window open and its freezing outside brrrrrr *shiver* I didnt sleep a lot last night, maybe 2-3 hours top! there was noise outside there was noise inside my head, i kept on imagining what could happened, what could have happened...it's so very very hard. And now my parents are bugging me "ow what's wrong steffy you look weird!?" "im tired is all" "oh u sure?? what your pretty friend from the net told you" "fuck off nothing happened im tired TAHT's ALL" now bugger off seriously im getting annoyed... And now i feel like crying coz im such an emotional pityfull girl blah...and in 5-10min i'll be crying coz i have no strength to keep the tears from flowing and my stomach hurts!! fucking bitch!! And to think that this stupid little bitch just dropped her boyfriend and jump on my-almost-mine!! just to forget the previous one!!! SLUT!!!!!!!!!! I HOPE YOU FREEZE IN HELL!!! Seriously women are all bitchy slut!!!! and then when i confront her, i just asked her one stupid question "when are you going back with your ex?!" she just got angry and insult me and LOL why so pissy missy??? i hit a nerve or two??? CUNT! Seriously im just about to have a nervous break down!! Some friend told me "hey just tell this guy that you love him maybe he'll realise his mistakes" lol and give him more ammo to shot me??? sure why not... And then i'll just take the train and give maself to him coz hey it wont hurt to try! Fuck YOU FUCK HIM FUCK ME!!!!! ... Lets re-do last night tonight! i'll drink a lot (my glass is already ready) i'll cry a lot maybe ill even manage to drop dead... im tired of all of this.... Quote "Let's be friend!! but hey just so you know, i didnt talk much when we were 'together' in this sort of togetherness, dont expect me to talk now that we're just friend..." End of quote shoot me =((((( post comment

[30 Nov 2008|02:57am] [ mood | crushed ] Let's write while the spirit is still raw!! It's been a while since i wrote anything at all beside bills and thing for the shop im working at. I will really begin to think that an artist can't live without being miserable. Not that i even believe im an artist far from it. But right now i'm feeling miserable and i just have to write! Like there's something in my tiny fucking brain that tell me "feel miserable, the more you are, the more you create" or whatever...it's weird! Maybe if i try i could draw again! ok it might be bloody angry ugly thing but it would be drawing none the less! i really really feel like shit...i took a few drinks, im not sober aanymore and still i manage to write slightly right! I feel like i got hit by a car...worse a big bad truck!! I was hoping, maybe, this sweet nice cool guy would be teh one...you know?? and one of our common friend told me that "hey the guy you pin for got a girlfriend!! they did it behind your back!!" and it hurts like a fucking bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really dont know what i did wrong coz hey read the post under this one im a fucking nut case! I mean allright im afraid to call people on their phone, ok im even afraid to meet them...but why couldnt he WAIT?!! its not like i didnt try!! My guts are like torn since one month coz of the effort of trying to win over my fucking shyness!! And we were having those really pretty chat, saying what we'll do when i go see him and he gave me HOPE for fucking sake!!! just fucking HOPE ! And now im shatered into a million pieces and i really dont wanna pick them up yet again... i WONT have the strength to do it yet AGAIN! It'"s funny cuz im supposed to be drunk and here i am clear thought going through my head, feeling a little fuzy and wanting to cry. I did that a lot tonight...cry.... A friend told me that its his fault he didnt wait, that i didnt have anything to do with all the badness...but i feel bad. Maybe if i did this or that...it's always when its too late that you want to do those things you didnt...and now its too late. I dont know if the fact that he still wants to be friend with me should hurt me or not... I mean hey you just broke my heart do you except me to just say yay let talk like nothing ever happened? damn! And i'm the one with no feelings???!! Fuck it! Yeah coz apparently every fucking one around us saw that i like (hell i can even say love) him but he didnt???? lol??? is this a joke??? he said "i didnt know you were having feelings for me!!" YA COZ IM A ROBOT!!!! i don have feeling at all!! I PLAYED GAME I DIDNT EVEN WANNA PLAY JUST SO I WOULD FEEL COOL!! I TRIED MY BEST mAkING CONVERSATION JUST COZ HEY I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO DO!!!! im such a stupid girl....seriously go ahead and shoot me!! Im tired of this bullshit! Ive had enough! THIS WORlD IS SERIOUSLY cRUAL!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK IT! now i have the headache, no one to talk to coz hey no friend?! and im just......tired of this mess I wanna cry and scream and just punch something and i hate everyhing for the moment... i dont even wanna sing i don even wanna draw, sew, nothing..im empty I think it was the last straw that made me break Ive lost all hope in humanship dont ever talk about love to me i'll hit you..hard! AND HEY LOOKIE!!!! its almost CHRISTMAS!!! what a beautifull present!!! my heart inpieces ohhh you shouldnt have...really, im touched!!! please...just shoot me...someone... 4 comments|post comment

[07 Sep 2008|12:41pm] [ mood | bored ] still alive managing through this hell that is life 2 comments|post comment

venting.........! [10 Jun 2008|10:37pm] [ mood | crazy ] ok i need something, someone, somehow, to vent. God help me but i feel like crap, yet again xD seriously i don't know WHAT's wrong with me! It's becoming an old story and i dont like it. At ALL Me and my heart, ah. Me and my mind, ahah. So lets write a list or something : 1. I dont like myself. - Duh! it's not new and i fear it won't change so far. --Now what i dont like in myself: my stupidness (whaaat I AM STUPID), my fugly face, my fugly body, my hair, my nose, my mind, the fact that i look and act like a 12years old, my no-communication skill (im pretty good at it), my weak heart, that my eyes seem to cry whenever they feel like it Lets start again! *breathe* ->my stupidness: ok lets face it, im not the brightest person on this world. Or so i think, or so PEOPLE tend to make me think. I dont know what to think anymore anyway! ->my fugly face: ahahah xD seems like there's nothing i CAN do for THAT! unless i go through plastic surgery or somthing ->my body, my hair, my nose and all of the above: hey im a girl, always complaining about our physical shape is what we do the best! Ohhh here i know how to do something well!!! hourray ->my mind: i dont really know what's wrong with it! one day it thinks "ohh cuddly puppy!" and the other it thinks "multi-kill lets have blood and chaos", you got the picture? i got it everyday =,= ->act and look like a 12yo: well, maybe not 12...15! every damn people i came across always tell me "oh you certainly dont look like you're 22, more like a 15"! ohhh thank you so much!!! that's so flattering <3333 NO! seriously! what the fuck is wrong with women and their need to look younger!!!! I dont want it but here i am! And what's worse is the acting!! the acting!!! i tell you... why must i still BE like a child! the worse thing ever is i cant even change myself, not even surgery can change THAT. ->no-communication skill: ohlol, this one is priceless! Since my little heart-broken story with mister "do as i say not as i do", i cant seem to talk to ANYONE! i mean it!!! it's like "hey how are u" "hey, fine you" "what's up" "oh nothing the usual, u?" "same here"..................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................DO YOU GET MY POINT???!!!! (there's a damn mosquito pissing me off right now, i'll have its head è_é!!) it couldnt be worse, oh wait it is!!! ->my weak heart : i had my heart broken so many time, i lost count. Who is stupid enough to fall in love with someone, eventhough he/she knows there's NO WAY it can work, but falls anyway??? Who can be stupid enough to HOPE for love when said person had his/her heart broken so many time!? Who can be so stupid as to do everything of the above again and again, till death does them apart? I think i'm cursed =,= ->eyes got personnality : At least some part of me got personnality!! but more seriously, they seem to have their own mind. I absolutly hate to cry. And here i am (or will be), crying everything i can cause of some stupid thing...yet again!!! 2. I don't like others i dont like them, but it's like im pulled toward them, you know, like the mosquito and the light, drawn to each other even though one will kill the other. I have nothing else to say except that maybe, i have enough of them playing with me, (ab)using me, throwing me away and so on and so on 3. number one topic in my life that i talk about with, let's see, no one : guys I found out yet another guy to pin after *run in circle*. He is cute, smart,funny, lives alone and all that crap. The thing is, he doesnt even seem to CARE for me. He doesnt ask how i am, he doesnt want to know what might be new in my life, he doesnt talk about himself, he doesnt ask question... what the fuck do i find likable in him?!!!!! I DONT KNOW FFS!!!!!!!!! He asked me to come visite him, but as i have absolutly no confidence, zero self esteem, i could-stab-myself-to-death kind of hate, there's no way i can go! and then what?? we dont talk coz im no-communcation girl? we jump each other? (as if...) we what exactly??? i really dont understand. Sure we're friend (arent't we?) but i wont do +500km just to see a friend!! My one and only living-near-me friend come visit me and i want to throw him out coz of my stupid mood changes! And hey, what if he doesnt like me, what if i dont like him (there's no way but hey...humor me) what if i got my heart broken, again??? IT will happen, i know it, but the lesser damage, the better, right??? 4. I want to write a story, about a boy and a girl. they met when they were little (around 4-5years old) at an orphanage and became best buddies. They had to separate at the age of 10 and 12/15 years later, the boy hunt down the girl and found her. But he became a real psyco because of his fosters families. She became a real bitch but nevermind that, lets focus on the boy shall we??? hrhrhr. I had planned this whole story, but for god's sake, i cant find the words!!! i cant write one correct sentence!! is something wrong with me?? (ohhh a lot is wrong) i thought it would be a pretty nice plot with lots of things happening, with sex and blood and death and love and...i'm pathetic aren't i =,= i cant even write a STUPID FUCKING STORY >O< 5. I'm still wondering why i go on msn as no one ever talk to me, without me talking to them first. 6. I cant draw anymore. It's sad isn't it? I lost my muse. She went away, left me alone, like everyone, and took all the inspiration with her. What am i without inspiration?? it would be like a vase without flower or a bee without honey. I'm slightly confused and again, i'm not. Maybe she'll come back *get cookies out* 7. It's late and i think i'll go to bed 8. I'm working with my father. I dont think it will actually "work". He makes me do all HIS work, like "hey stef, call this society and ask them something" but the thing is, i dont know what he wants at all! It would be so much easier if he calls himself! but noooooooooooo i have to do it, i dont even know why. It wont work, end of story, i'll bet my right hand on it! 9. I'm really tired 10. It's soon my birthday........LOL =,= another joke of this stupid world 11. Be back later and oh...this was a long post!!! i'm feeling a little better 12.or not 1 comment|post comment

hmmmm [08 Mar 2008|12:26am] [ mood | cranky ] i was passing by and i thought...why not post something...nah ok i'm bored to death and i dont know what to do and it's been a...while??? >.> I'm really really not good at keeping a diary :p my bad SOOO!! what happened??? Me and this stupid guy officially broke up after getting back together. he wanted to end things, we ended things...hmmm not a big loss if u want my opinion, i'm still wondering why i cried so much for this...jerk Since then i've been a little "no-life" girl! should i be ashamed?? i really dont know! not like friends ACTUALLY grow on trees u know! It's funny coz it'slike ive lost my communication skills...i cant find topic to talk about. Almost like the jerk sucked all my conversation skills... I did a bit of job hunting...wich turn out to be really depressing coz no one seems to want me! ahah i found another guy i like really much but damn it me and ma luck! he got a girlfriend and i'm slightly suspicious that he talks to me only when his friends are not online...duh lucky me >.> other than that i'm on gaia online! great little site ^-^ My nickname is psycosnake, feel free to join!!! I lost interest in gackt...Really this guy's becoming more and more of a commercial thing than anything else *sigh* not that i dont like him anymore...his songs are still giving me the gooeying feeling but well... it's not like it's used to be! On another note i'll move out to another town! it will be cool...i think o,o cant be worse than where i am right now :p hmm im thinking about writing a book but damn it i cant find my text file anymore >O< i dont even know if i got the skills but i'll try it wont hurt I havent done some sculpey since ages!! i wonder if i'll make a site to sell things if there's nothing to sell xd taht must be all....till next time ^^ i miss all my old friend.........*sad* post comment

oh news!! [29 Aug 2007|11:28pm] [ mood | amused ] Hi everyone! hi no one!! I'm bringing news! I'm totally over the depression thing! i was soooo off my bird xD when i look back i just think "what the hell, was it really me??? i would have thisgirl in front of me i would have...throw a shovel to her head or sumething" I'm here, all new and no depressy! Resolved to conquer the world...maybe not THAT far but i am resolved!! I have to find a goal for life! it's the hard part of the deal... but i will do it!! see *resolved face* Anyway! i'm trying to patch things up with my last luv! it's hard, it will be long (hell he doesn't even kiss me goodbye T_T) but i will do it!!! and even if hell got to freeze we will be best pal again! i swear it on my life! The website is coming along quite well...need this and that... OK OK you got me...i didn't work on it at all those last few days >.> shame on me! i will i promise! Next week i will hunt for jobs for real! (coz until now i just kinda...didn't hunt very well...more like my ass in the sofa...surfing on the net...you got the idea right >.>) THEN I have to do some sports! i dont care wich i dont care how! but i have to move my ass!! (damn...have to stop writing ass...i'm an ass obsessed *drool*) I miss my dear friends the most!!!! Katherine sweetie why not there???? Arcinmysky??? where are you???? (you will have to tell me your real name girl! i wont bite, promise *grin*) and hmmm my other friends...who doesn't read this lj...coz it's english and they don't know it even exist...but i miss you too!!! even though it's been what....4years since last news?? GOD WHY PEOPLE ALWAYS WAIT TO GET NEWS FROM OTHER??? I mean, do i always have to do the first move???!!! i'm tired of that!! i did it everytime...and everytime i get the door in the face!!! Other news...fight with my dad, coz i'm unemployed. I swear he talks to me like this ever again, i'll kill him! you don't talk to me like THAT!!! well you do...once! but not twice!! i'll show him how useless i am! >.< hmmm i think that's all I'm all hyper right now coz i watched buffy and it's so funny XD i'm addicted to it!!! Sarah michelle gellar is so cute xD and james marsters is so hot *drool all over keyboard* I love this serie!! AND I got all the season!! next month, as soon as i got my money, i buy the complete box *-* coz right now it's the downloaded episodes >.> taking place on hard disk XD not really convenient!! I wish i could come over to USA, it seems so cool...girls if you read, tell me how it is? or show me pics??? i mean...could i move over there and find a job, an appartment...live a life??? i totally want to *-* details i need details!!! I'm off now! need my ugly sleep :p 4 comments|post comment

[17 Aug 2007|09:01am] Feeling down yet again... I just got my mind really wrap around the concept that we could get back together and i was trying to be cheary and smile and be nice with all the people. Everything went crashing to hell when i got his last mail....... "I really can't do it, i hurt to much when i think about everything, i wont be online again, move on and get a life with someone that is not me, adieu" i just have to say it once... WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKK??????????????? is he dumb or what?? i thought i was stupid but i found stupider!!!! why does he not fight??? am i so little for him? He broke my heart over and over again...the thing is that it seems i don't mind...coz hey! still runing after him... I'm completly nuts!!!!!!!!! Damn it! damn it! damn it! damn it! If everything doesn't get back the way it was........i'd lost all faith in man and love and hope and...life? on other news: working on the website design...after 4 hours of hard work and no save in between, my computer decided to crash...yay?? i just want one thing, gimme back my luv...damn it i'll never ask for anything in my life!!! just give him back And yeah i'm talking to YOU above us!! the one so called God or something??!!! do something nice for me once in your eternal life damn it!!! I think i had my fair share of unluck...don't you think???? Enough crying for me...if it doesn't get better! Fuck everyone! dont ever speak about love to me! 2 comments|post comment

the sun is shining...or not?? [10 Aug 2007|03:27pm] =o what's up??? Bright side : I talked with teh guy!! (at long last!!!!!!!!!) We had the biggest MAIL ever!! it was so painful! i almost cried T___T but it was worth it??? I said what i had to say (i neeeed youuu don't leave meeeee *beg on knees*) and he said what he had to say (i don't know, i have to think about it) ........when you read it like this it seems like i am a pityfull girl and he is the biggest jerk on earth XD but really not!! He promises me absolutly nothing but he had to clear is mind, coz on both side someone played with us and it's a long story......=_= (for short: i heard he was talking on my back, he heard i was talking on his back...no communication...absolute problem!!!when there really was nothing!!) hmmmm on the not so bright side: I have no words of him since tuesday...i miss him, but it does not hurt...coz i'm kinda hoping it will get better between us (silly girl i know!!!) he told me it couldn't be like before coz he lost motivation (wth?) Am i not worthy??? gosh...sometime i really think i'm this alien or something no one wants o_o on the bright/dark side : i'm creative when depressed and it sucks!!! i made some figurine (right word???) with hardening paste and it's so cute *-* i luv it! Should i post pic??? >.> i wonder! . . . . . . After thinking, and because i love comment (who doesn't!) Here is teh dolly http://sakura.stehauf.free.fr/IMG_0831.JPG (detail) http://sakura.stehauf.free.fr/IMG_0835.JPG (global) It's from a MMORPG i'm playing called ragnarok online. The girl should be a monster you have to kill "Loli Ruri" I think i've done a good job...what do you think??? >.> don't flame pls??? I'll work on website this week end and keep everyone inform!!! I'm thinking of sewing Kitten too! tell me what you think! (it would be like the bunnies but kitten instead o_o) bye bye and love to everyone!!!!!! 6 comments|post comment

depressed or somethin... [07 Aug 2007|02:40am] Hey, i really need someone right now! i'm about to break and no one's here right coz everyone leave me! duh.... i don't know what i did in the past...but my fault might be great coz i always fall! this time i felt really really hard so...i'm being a zomby and crying like a waterfall, who cares enough to give little me a hug?? man i'm so pathetic... ok so basically for those who wants to know, i fell in love with a guy, the guy gave me great hope for a future together, all hell broke lose, the guy doesn't want to see my face anymore, it hurts like a bitch...i never cried this much, funny.......... anyway, nothing new, i dont know if i can walk away from this.......my life sucks so much... damn it 9 comments|post comment

news news [01 Aug 2007|03:12pm] ima not dead, or i think im not o_o i'll post pics of plushes made by meh =D life is going on...trying to forget YET another GUY i'm not lucky i swear!! can't find a job, can't find a love T-T I have this bad luck demon flying above my head! i'm sure he is laughing right now =3 anyway!! on with teh pics!!! http://sakura.stehauf.free.fr/IMG_0367.JPG Bunny alll soft and pink woot XD http://sakura.stehauf.free.fr/luveuhh.jpg a couple of bunny, they are so lovely *-* i love the salmon like color one ^^ with pretty ribbon and all!! the blue one got white wings on the back of its jacket =D CUTIEEEE!!!! *o* *off now* 10 comments|post comment

update time!! [23 Feb 2007|10:09pm] [ mood | bored ] Eheh i think it's time for an update........ first of all lover boy is back and it sux!!! i was in a grumpy mood when i saw him and i wanted to HIT him and raaahhhh i just hate him right now!!! As for the business...i might have an opening, we'll see about that later I'm starting a new thing i found on the net...beaded trees...sound like fun and it's kawaii ^^ i already did half one, pic later when it's finished!! And i did sculpey bear, they're cute but not bake yet! later as always hmmm below pics of my new rabbit and hamster The hamster is a crazy girl (like me ahahah) and she is the shyest thing i ever saw!!!! i can't even touch her!! she scream like it's the end of the world O_o frightening!!!! http://i140.photobucket.com/albums/r24/psycosnake/Photofdg003.jpg http://i140.photobucket.com/albums/r24/psycosnake/P1010241.jpg other than that........my life is boring as hell ^^ I need a job, i need money and most of all, i need to get laid roflllllllllllllllllllll 6 comments|post comment

[07 Feb 2007|10:17am] [ mood | crazy ] ahahahahahaha it's been so long since i post here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The problem is, i write a lot in my REAL jounral and don't have the time (or don't care) to write here >_____> what's up since......woahhhh september!!!??? I don't see the guy i love anymore (and when i say anymore it's not even a glimps) the jerk move out of town *sob* and i'm actually TRYING to move on (the working word is trying...) I'm working on a new website, to sell all the cute things i made (yayyy) it's ALMOST done Gackt is TEH love of my life *laugh madly* i bought lots of cd and dvd It's the first time i actually BUY something from a star *_* hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i still have to find a job...getting harder and harder...... I'm painting now!! i will post them later when i have time (and think of it *grin*) that's about all..... ja nee~ note: why everyone i care about is leaving me 6 comments|post comment

meme [01 Sep 2006|09:34pm] (Click here to post your own answers for this meme.) ✓ I miss somebody right now.  (very very much) ✓ I don't watch much TV these days. ✓ I own lots of books. ✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. × I love to play video games. × I've tried marijuana. ✓ I've watched porn movies.  (once but only like 5min) × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. ✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. ✓ I curse sometimes. ✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. ✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. ( it goes on... ) what am i becoming right now??? i feel like shit, i might not see the guy i love anymore, i feel like shit, i miss him already....i want to shoot myself.......did i mention the feel like shit??? post comment

[26 Sep 2005|08:21pm] [ mood | annoyed ] okkkkkkkkkkkkkk j'avais deja ecris tout mais suite a une fausse manip faut j'reecrive tout et j'ai pas envie donc en resumé, la vie reprend son cours, l'ete est fini donc tout va mieux! post comment

une paye.... [08 Jun 2005|12:34am] [ mood | crappy ] bon beh 2mois sans mise a jour...................les journaux ou blog ou ce que vous voulez c vraiment pas pour moi....koi de neuf??? un nouvel amoureu =________= plein de problemes!!! et la fin du monde en perspective... aloooooooooooooorsss............. premier sujet premier celui qui prendra le moins de temps, peut etre... mon nouvel amoureu?? bon evidemment c toujours du one-side story parcke j'ai pas de moule que je suis une pov fille et que j'ai pas de chance (j'l'ai deja dis ca nan??) J'l'adore de trop et on rigole de trop ensemble mais bon il est du genre a traiter les nanas un peu comme des jouets et c'est pas trop cool mais bon c la vie :/ et puis je sais meme pas ce que j'lui trouve!! c'est ça le pire!!! ça c fait petit a petit et now j'en viens meme a rever de ce gars! j'y crois pas ... ca me saoule ces histoires de coeur =__= ensuite les problemes! J'aurais besoin d'une corde, d'un tabouret et assez de crant! J'ai voulu me lancé dans un buisness de telephones....et c'est des carottes que j'ai recupéré...y sont gentils les gens n'est ce pas?? une raison de plus pour etre hermite! resultat j'ai plus une tune, j'en dois a plein de monde, mes parents sont pas au courant et le jour ou ils le seront vaut mieux pas que je sois dans le coin.................................................... sinon bah j'ai acheté le single de pierrick de la nouvelle star ok honte sur moi lol j'kiffe trop sa voie et son style excusez moi!! et puis shakira aussi...et emmanuel moire (ahh le bo gosse!) et puis le meilleur pour la fin: HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BCBGBCBGBCBGBCBBGBCBGBCBGBCBGBCBGBBGBCBGBCBGBCBGBCBGBCBGBCBGBCBGBCBG *luvv purrrrrrrrrrrr* bref! J'ai pa encore ecrit la suite de bad days, ou alors quelques lignes seulement, vu mon etat mental ces derniers jours vaut mieux pas que je me mette a l'ecriture ce sera moche et depressif et pas bo a voir a la prochaine update!!!! post comment

ouaiii [01 Apr 2005|10:09am] [ mood | annoyed ] j'ai fait un ptit questionnaire parcke celui de tout en bas il est pas bien :p bon c en anglais et j'veux pas traduire =_= About Yourself! 149 questions! Created by Lynsey and taken 586 times on bzoink! A little bit about you What is your name? stephanie How old are you? 18 soon 19 When is your birthday? 15-06-1986 What is your starsign? gemini Where was you born? on earth??? Where do you live now? still on earth? What color eyes do you have? blue What color hair do you have? red/brown/dark purple? Is your hair long or short? short but long at the same time - shoulder length What is your height? 1.68 i think Are you single? yup Do you have a nickname? If yes, what is it? stehauf, psycosnake Occupation? uh.... What music are you currently listening to if any? ayumi hamasaki - free & easy Favourite Color? black Name? adrien Song? lots of songs!!! Band? ayumi, gackt, chihiro onitsuka, kokia, x-japan and so on Movie? last samurai Friend? i'm friendless Subject? nothing in particular Animal? cats or foxies Food? ice cream Chocolate? with liquor in them ^^ Sweet? yeah, but with moderation Number? 2 Day of the week? monday (i don't work that day) Season? winter, it's so beautiful and dead Weather? not warm Time of day? night Type of music? pop rock techno trance dance house Video to a song? uh...aoi hekireki Song name? aoi hekireko Band name? t.m.revolution Instrument? electro pop Room in your house? bedroom Weapon? blade Type of death? bloody Person? my plushies? Celebrity? tom cruise Sport? football Piercing? no Tattoo? hell yeahh a big dragon in the back Hair style? dreadlocks or the way i have now Channel? don't like tv Store? mall Drink? water/whiskey-coca Shoes? i don't care Pet name? shini Boys name? already answer this Girls name? dunno Game? lots, Need for speed underground State? japan Country? japan Car? llike motorbike the best Places? japan Moments in your life? haven't yet Flower? daffodil Scent? my plushies Thing to do? drawing, sleeping Actor? tom cruise Actress? michelle pfeifer? Shirt/Tshirt? dunno This or That Sprite or 7UP? no one Coca Cola or Pepsi? no one Phone or computer? hell computer Ocean or Lake? ocean Summer or Winter? winter Spring or Autumn? spring TV or Radio? radio Black or white? black Pants or shorts? pants Vans or etnies? vans Burgers or Hot dogs? burgers Basketball or Football? basketball Chocolate or Vanilla chocolate Getting high or Stoned? stoned Burger King or McDonalds? macdo Recliners or Couches? couches Men or Women? men... Cat or Dog? cat Baby boy or Baby girl? baby girl Punk or Rap? punk Emo or Heavy Metal? neither Comedy or Drama? sci fi Alive or Dead? dead Happy or sad? sad Sunny or Raining? raining Dumb or Smart? either Up or Down? down Ice cream or Sherbert? ice cream Vodka or Beer? vwhiskey ^^ Tall or Short? tall for boys, me i'm short Love or Lust? either Fruit or Vegetables? fruit Ham or Turkey? turkey Red or Pink? red Morning or Night? night School or Church? neither!!!! Lights or No lights? no lights Silence or Noise? noise Coffee or Tea? tea Breakfast or Dinner? breakfast Evening meal or desert? desert Shower or bath? shower Working hard or Hardly working? hardly working With others or Alone? rather alone Girly or Punk? punk Tomboy or Girly? tomboy Black cats or Tabies? black cats Dreams or Nightmares? nightmares Makeup or No makeup? no makeup When was the last time you....? ...cried? not so long ago... ...hugged somebody? uh..........looooooong time ...Listened to music? now ...Sang loudly? now lol ...Had a shower? yesterday ...Had a bath? .....6-7years ...Kissed somebody of the same sex? on the mouth??? no one ...Kissed somebody of the opposite sex? no one ...Smoked? last year ...Gotten high? dunno ...Drank alcohol? alcohol rocks!!! ...Smiled? yesterday... ...Talked on the phone? yesterday too ...Went to another country? 8 years ...Had fast food? 1 month?? ...Listened to the radio? 3 days ...Talked on an instant messanger? yesterday i think ...Slept over at somebodys house other than your own? 2-3 month ...Went swimming? 4 years ...Sang a song? now ...Watched a movie? 3 days ...Watched a scary movie? same ...Got depressed? everyday! ...Licked your lips? now ...Saw a movie at the cinema? last week ...You laughed? yesterday ...typed 'Lol' to somebody? today ...cursed somebody? everyday ...went on a holiday? never ...told a lie? everyday ...was kissed? never ...Had a bad dream? everyday ...Was upset? today! Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink! post comment

oh j'suis pas morte!!!!!!! [21 Mar 2005|01:51am] [ mood | drained ] et beh ca fait un baille................................... depuis aout I_I wow y s'est passé pleeeeeiiiiinn de choses depuis aout "morte-de-rire"!!!!!! Je sais pas si je vais pouvoir tout ecrire d'un coup comme ca c'est un peu la misere.... Faire mois par mois ce serait une bonne idée nan?? ( Ma vie de misere ) post comment

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